Walkabout: a ritual in which one goes on a solitary journey through the wilderness in an attempt to learn more about his/ her own character and strength.
My journey began July 5th visiting my children and grandsons in Ontario, and nieces and nephews in San Bernardino. It was wonderful to spend time with these children of my heart who I had the privilege to raise and love as my own. From there I drove up to camp in Bass Lake where I was able to both reconnect with old friends and meet new staff. I was blessed to spend my first weekend with Brandon, a friend made last summer. We spent a day exploring Yosemite, and had a BBQ dinner at the historic Wawona Hotel. We spent another day in the tranquil setting of Soquel, a property owned by the camp. His final evening we drove back into camp and went out to dinner with the staff who were off for the night. It was such a blessing to share long leisurely conversations with them. I spent the next few days alone at the cabin in Soquel, taking a Sacred Pause. It’s something I do before each birthday, reflect on the past, look forward to the future, recalibrate whatever’s off. It’s a time to check in and see if I’m on the path I want to be on. As Parker Palmer says, “Is the life I’m living the life that wants to live in me?”
I then headed to Colorado via 2-lane highway through Yosemite, past Mono Lake (amazing!), and eventually (due to a wrong turn that ended up in a 6-hour detour) near Telluride and through the Red Mountain Pass. That pass was the most terrifying drive I’ve EVER made, at least 10 times worse than the drive to Arrowhead. It seemed like a mule trail someone decided to call a road, and no one had the sense to disagree. It was two lanes with a sheer cliff on the passenger side. There was about a foot of pavement past the white line of my lane, then another foot of gravel, then the abyss. Raise your hand if you know how I feel about heights. Yep, it’s a big fear for me, another one of my “things”. You woulda laughed if you’d seen me hugging the center line. My head was nearly sticking out the driver’s window as I leaned my whole body as far away from that edge as possible. Did I mention there were no guard rails and the speed limit was 10mph, AND it was dusk?!!! I couldn’t even cry because I was so scared that my vision would be blurred.
Not to get too philosophical, but look at the big picture of my life in comparison. Because of that detour I saw some amaaaazingly beautiful countryside, historic towns, and wildlife. Sure, I practically died from terror, but I didn’t. I really do look at life as a rollercoaster. Sometimes those drops bring my stomach into my throat and I scream, but it’s exhilarating too. The road from Mono Lake had those kind of dips and drops, and I alternately screamed and laughed driving through them. I’m not sure why, but for me, there’s something deeply therapeutic and restorative about driving alone across country. I was so energized and soothed by the experience. It was amazingly fabulous.
So, after 3 (instead of the 2 planned) days, I made it to my mom’s in Cañon City, Colorado, just south of Colorado Springs. Mom and her husband have made things very comfortable for me. They’re trying to lure me to stay here. I’m not a desert girl, but it sure is gorgeous, and a 2-3 bedroom house with an expansive yard rents for a jaw-dropping $600 which doesn’t do much to appease my resentment for Orange County. I’m staying until I have enough funds for the next leg of the trip. Unfortunately the economy is pretty depressed, so I’m struggling to find work here too. And, there’s this record-breaking heat-wave going on. It’s been 108˚ all week. Again, raise your hand if you know how I feel about heat. Yep, HATE it!!!
Well, that’s about it for now. You’re in my thoughts and prayers. I’ll let you know when more develops.
Not to get too philosophical, but look at the big picture of my life in comparison. Because of that detour I saw some amaaaazingly beautiful countryside, historic towns, and wildlife. Sure, I practically died from terror, but I didn’t. I really do look at life as a rollercoaster. Sometimes those drops bring my stomach into my throat and I scream, but it’s exhilarating too. The road from Mono Lake had those kind of dips and drops, and I alternately screamed and laughed driving through them. I’m not sure why, but for me, there’s something deeply therapeutic and restorative about driving alone across country. I was so energized and soothed by the experience. It was amazingly fabulous.
So, after 3 (instead of the 2 planned) days, I made it to my mom’s in Cañon City, Colorado, just south of Colorado Springs. Mom and her husband have made things very comfortable for me. They’re trying to lure me to stay here. I’m not a desert girl, but it sure is gorgeous, and a 2-3 bedroom house with an expansive yard rents for a jaw-dropping $600 which doesn’t do much to appease my resentment for Orange County. I’m staying until I have enough funds for the next leg of the trip. Unfortunately the economy is pretty depressed, so I’m struggling to find work here too. And, there’s this record-breaking heat-wave going on. It’s been 108˚ all week. Again, raise your hand if you know how I feel about heat. Yep, HATE it!!!
Well, that’s about it for now. You’re in my thoughts and prayers. I’ll let you know when more develops.
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